just a glimpse

Thursday, January 26, 2006

math quiz

k, i hardly do these things...or i do and i never care enough to say anything about them, but let me just say that this was no surprise. i even used a pencil and paper! but the fractions scared me away. and i don't know what "^" means. sigh. they should at least tell you the answers at the end. sheesh.

You Failed 8th Grade Math

Oh no, you only got 6/10 correct!

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

random spurts

*disclaimer: i'm slightly emotional right now, so don't take me too seriously. but i still pretty much mean what i say. think what you will.*

  • sometimes i wish i cared more. but sometimes i just don't.
  • can't things just be not messed up sometimes?
  • can people just stop thinking about themselves?
  • i don't like feeling needy.
  • how do you ask for a hug without it being weird?
  • so many things bother me.
  • i bother me.
  • why can't we all just get along?
  • would things be easier if i was a guy?
  • feelings get complicated.
  • girls can be so whack.
  • i wish i could make you feel better.
  • why is there so much talk about marriage lately?
  • sometimes i wish time can just stop so i can catch up.
  • waiting is hard.
  • crushes can be destructive. especially when you're in denial. and when you can't distance yourself anymore. stop convincing yourself it's ok.
  • mom said it best: boys are trouble.
  • you come and you go and you come and you go. can't you just stay forever?
  • there are so many things i wish i was good at.
  • can i really get through life sucking at math?
  • i wish change was easier.
  • i get really sad when my Christian friends seem to be living double lives. sometimes i think i'm one of them.
  • i'm really proud of you boys.
  • i like how you think i'm fun to talk to.
  • wouldn't you like to be encouraged more?
  • i wish you wouldn't be so bitter at life.
  • some people just need to grow up.
  • i want to be better.
  • why have i been blogging so much?
  • tv is the devil.
  • i feel responsible that you don't come to church anymore.
  • will better be the first to sign up for softball :)
  • sometimes i think i'm so easily shaken. sometimes i don't.
  • love is so hard. especially with family.
  • sometimes i wish i was someone else. sometimes i don't.
  • i like how i can talk to people about anything and everything. but sometimes i don't feel like i can at all.
  • it's sad to realise how superficial a friendship developed since childhood as become. it's sad to hear i've been reduced to "we grew up together". i tried. but this is your choice.
  • i need to get my act together.
  • i'd rather not think than not feel.
  • school can be such a pain in the everywhere.
  • it's sad when i think about how the person who has hurt me like i've never been hurt before in my life is a pastor. how do you know when you've forgiven someone?
  • people who try to get into teacher's college as a back up plan piss me off. people who actually end up getting in piss me off even more. don't kids deserve more than that?
  • my mom is my hero.
  • i want to save the world.
  • i want to believe that change can happen.
  • you are more than what you've become.

till next time...take care of yourself and each other.
i mean it.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

why

why does the moon get so full
she asked with a questioning face
and who's gonna keep me warm
why did my daddy walk away
why can't i live in a house
on a hill or far away
what does the moon get so full
and my belly stay empty for days

why does one child die
and another one gets to live
why do i even ask why
oh, it's the sign of the times closing on in
why can't we hear our own lies
and search for the truth again
why does one child die
and another one gets to live

they say it's a twist of fate
gets you in or takes you out
providential circumstance
isn't that what's life all about

well, go tell that to the widow and orphan
well, preach that to the hungry and the poor
numb my heart and my hands
i can't feel them i can't feel them
i can't feel them anymore

why do we climb up the ladder
just to buy a bigger roof
so we can stand and look down below
and say we've got something to prove

we all wear those coloured ribbons
a tiny sign of a much bigger need
"it's the thought that counts" is not an answer
but the price is rather cheap
they say it's a twist of fate
gets you in or takes you out
providential circumstance
isn't that what's life all about

well, go tell that to the widow and orphan
well, preach that to the hungry and the poor
numb my heart and my hands
i can't feel them i can't feel them
i can't feel them anymore

so why speak your cold solutions
and your warm but empty ways
please don't show me your clean hands
when i see on mine only dirt
and don't avoid the faces of the orphans
they cry to be caught from the fall
tell her why her stomach is empty
and why the moon is so full
-r.springer


(click for one of my favourite galleries online. robbie, you'll like this one)

Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. -james 1:27

Monday, January 23, 2006

when the night feels my song

i've been feeling these guys...well, at least this song.
for new year's, syd and i were at nathan phillips and bedouin soundclash was there. their reggae-ness caught us offguard. but it seemed like everyone knew who they were and sang along during the rather catchy chorus, i must say. well, i find it catchy now....but that night we were both like, "who the heck are these guys??" bunch ofwhite guys playing reggae from kingston...ontario. tonight i was buying a sandwich at york and it was playing in the background and i was like...hey, these guys! and then all of a sudden i felt like sunshine :) this is catchy feel good stuff! i ask my friends every now and then whether they've heard of bedouin soundclash, and their answers are always no.

well friends, i present to you:
bedouin soundclash with "when the night feels my song"



so...what do you think?

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

election 2006

i've never been one to be interested in politics. i know i'm not alone. most of you who read this are probably as disengaged as i am when it comes to the issues surrounding the election, or any election for that matter. heck, even the percentage of young people voting in our church regarding church matters is tiny so i'm not surprised that youths in general are disengaged from politics.

for me, it's just tough to understand all the issues. the political jargon confuses me and i don't know how the issues and promises affect me. i want to be able to vote as an informed citizen, but my lack of knowledge discourages me. i'd rather not vote at all than to make an uninformed decision. i'm just one vote. what could it do?

i'm starting to see how important it is to keep up with what's going on in our country and the people who run it on a regular basis, especially when there's no election or crazy political scandal going on. if you try and get familiar with all the issues and where each party stands (btw, did you know there's a marijuana party?) a couple of weeks before election date, it'll be too overwhelming cuz there's so much information, so much history. i've always wanted to stay informed with canadian as well as global issues, but often it's just so hard to keep up and then i end up giving up...until something major happens, that always has to do with something in the past so i can't completely understand what's going on so i try to read up on everything i've missed but so many things have happened, i get discouraged, and the cycle starts again.

i know i'm not alone.

for this election, i'm trying to be as informed as i can be and vote so i can excercise my right and responsibility to voice out my opinion as a Canadian citizen. i know i am an idealist so i believe that my vote matters. i believe that our society can be more peaceful and embracing of the diversity in our culture, without compromising my values. although everyone knows that i don't handle money and figures well, i do believe that our country can be a better place if money was spent in more appropriate areas.

i don't know everything there is to know but there are certain issues that matter to me more than others and i think it's ok to vote based on those. i personally don't care too much about military defence, trade, political reform, or even taxes, but the issues regarding education, child-care, the arts, and the environment are those that i want a say on. some people only vote based on one thing...like how i feel the church encourages us to vote solely based on how parties view the same-sex marriage issue. i might get in trouble for saying this, but i don't feel that it should have any more weight than any other issue discussed. i don't even feel like it's as important as some of the other thinge being discussed. there's something that doesn't quite jive in me when church leaders encourage us to vote but they only seem to tell us the significance of this one same-sex marriage issue because it directly goes against what it says in the bible. reality check: take a look around. nothing in our secular society is how God meant things to be. it's great that we're encouraged to go on whatever rallies to fight against the same-sex marriage deal, but why aren't we encouraged to get involved with other issues like tuition fees, firearm laws, childcare programs, or support for seniors? the church encourages us to vote, but i think it can also do it's part in helping young people to be informed with other issues in our government so we can have a wider, more balanced worldview. i think the political parties don't do enough to engage youth in matters of the government too but i think most of us are old enough to do their research.

for me, i'm glad to read about how elementary schools and highschools are participating in programs where they get to do mock elections (because they're not old enough to legally vote) after learning about the real issues, leaders, and parties. it's amazing reading about kids being passionate about politics and understanding that they have the potential to change the future of our country if they're committed to being educated. that's incredible. it's so simple. i wish that people could have instilled that in me when i was younger so i wouldn't be scrambling to understand everything now. but it's never too late. so i encourage you to do what you can in making an informed decision this coming election. talk to people about it. parents are great for this kind of stuff. read the newspaper. watch the news or read about it online. excercise your voice as a citizen. believe that your vote matters. believe that you can make a difference.

some things that can hopefully help you (you can click on the images):

this is a side by side comparison of the issues and each party's stance on them from the globe and mail.
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this is an interactive page from cbc that's similar to the one above but you click on each issue and it'll say what each party thinks. sort of side by side, but just one issue at a time.


i thought this was pretty cool. and fun too. you choose the parties you want to consider and it'll take you through 12 issues each party is addressing. it'll give you each party's stance on the issue without telling you who said what, so you click on agree or disagree based on what has been said about the issue. at the end, i'll tell you which party you most agree and disagree with, as well as what you've chosen not to agree or disagree with. the results page will take you to links that will help you to understand each issue more indepthly.


i really appreciate how some tv programs geared towards youth are covering the election and helping young people get involved so this is definitely worth checking out. and the fact that it's under the "big deal"on their main page is awesome.


and lastly, this you must do:

I urge you, first of all, to pray for all people. As you make your requests, plead for God's mercy upon them, and give thanks. Pray this way for kings and all others who are in authority, so that we can live in peace and quietness, in godliness and dignity. This is good and pleases God our Savior, for he wants everyone to be saved and to understand the truth. -1 tim 2:1-4

election day: january 23, 2006

Sunday, January 01, 2006

a quick look back



it's true. people never take pictures of the sad moments. i've had lots of them this year. it's definitely been stretching, but it's also been the sweetest year too. it's a blessing to wake up every morning and realise that family and friends are solid no matter the distance or circumstance. i don't want to get sappy, so thanks. y'all know who you are. cheers...

These are the special times
Times we'll remember
These are the precious times, the tender times
We'll hold in our hearts forever
These are the sweetest times
These times together
And through it all one thing will always be true
The special times are the times I share with you
-c.dion

Teach us to number our days aright,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
-ps. 90:12